Hon it was really nice waking up in the morning next to you... hayyy! I don't want this to stop... Love you honey! Thanks for everything... :D

God, please help me FIGHT temptations... Argh!

WOW! Im really speachless about lastnight... I felt all my feelings for you came back!

Why?
Do i miss you?
Do i still need you in my life?
Do i still love you?

MAYBE... I really don't know...

Basta lastnight, everything i felt for you before came back... But it suddenly just faded away after we part ways........ hayyyyyyyyyyy life!

*I wanted to tell you lastnight, I was really happy being with you again... I missed you a lot! and Im really glad your still there... You know what I mean? Btw I really wanted to be your "nurse" but it was late na and its time for me to go home... Hope you get well "baby boy"...

Ciara - Next To You Lyrics
(feat. R Kelly)

[Ciara:]
I hope I don’t make you mad, with what I’m ‘bout to say
boy
Here we are once again, and I’m havin second thoughts boy
I’m not messin with your head, but I changed my mind boy
I don’t know why I’m here, the same time I want you near

[Ciara:]
If you want me to leave, I will understand
See I will just have to respect your wishes boy
Cus if I stay aint no tellin what may happened boy
Although you look so good to me, its best that I leave

[Chorus:]
I’m scared of bein next to you, cus of what I think I might
do
Boy you turn me on right now, I can’t get down like that right
now
I don’t want to disturb the flow this is not my M-O,Hold up,
wait a minute, we’re movin way too fast
I want some like this here to last.

[R Kelly]
Don’t say no baby, not right now baby, I want you to be my
lady, you got me goin’ crazy

[Ciara:]
Well I guess I’ll stay for a minute, then I have to go boy
This moment is so temptin’, right now it’s not what I want
boy
Maybe if we just embrace, with a simple kiss boy
But that'll only make things worse, hope I’m not gettin’ on
your nerves

[Ciara:]
I just wanted to be right for the both of us
You don’t have to say a thing to make me comfortable
Boy, you make me so weak when you look at me
Right now I’m a little confused, I think its best that I
refuse

[Chorus]

[Ciara:]
We pose to be playin cards or watching a movie
We keep lockin’ eyes boy,now why you tryin to tease me
This room is gettin heatin’ want you open up a window
I think that I should go now, cus I can’t take this no more.

[Chorus x3]

I never expected that I would meet someone like him... Someone who appreciates me despite our age gap and differences... Someone who would make me realize that people should be strong and face problems that will come our way... He truly is different!

I felt the love that I deserve... FIRST TIME!!! One month and two weeks of having him COMPLETELY! We're still together but in a "cool-off" stage... Everything came to us just like a blink! PABAAM... I found my guy that was worth it! I couldn't explain how deep I am falling for him... I do love him already but as days goes by I still find myself falling for him all over again... WOW! I am really thankful for him...

There are still a lot of things I want to say just to describe him and my feelings but I just have no exact words... But maybe this could elaborate everything... ALL HEART!!!



BUT this is not all happy happy feeling...

What I really feel NOW...

Yes I am happy but hurting...

You came into my life and made a difference but because of our situation now... I really don't know! BLANK! It just hurts...

Yes we still say "I love you" to each other...

"Im jealous of that girl honey... But I trust you, I believe in everything you say... We love each other!"



It's so fast but everything is worth it! And I know soon, everything will be back to normal... Everything will go in the right way, we just have to be in the right timing! My honey told me that we just have to redeem ourselves and think about everything that's been happening... and guess what? His worth to me is PRICELESS... I would never exhange him for anything and would never let anyone go in our way...

I love my honey sooooooo much! I really thank god Ricky came into my life... My honey and My MONSTER!!! mine...